sometimes.

I wish I was someone else.
In another place.
Another time.

But then I remember.
What it took for me to even come into this world.
All of the circumstances.
It's so much to think about.
Too much.

I am meant to be here.
But why?
What am I supposed to do?

Sometimes I think I know.
I think God might be laughing at me saying,
"You have no idea."

I want to find out!
All I can do is continue to learn, listen & pray.
Maybe I'll get closer to the answer.

Love.

a song for two.

Jorge asked me to be his girlfriend yesterday on Valentine's day
at Cat and the Fiddle while listening to Jazz music,
and of course I accepted.
So cute! =]

This was playing without the lyrics:

Don't get around much anymore

	Kol Haruach Klezmer Band - Don't Get Around Much Anymore
	Found at skreemr.com

then:

my funny valentine

	Bernadette Seacrest and her Provocateurs - My Funny Valentine
	Found at skreemr.com

First one sound's good, but the lyrics are less than preferable. LOL
Second one is cute & funny, but I don't know if it should be "our song."

I think we will find another song that is amazing =]

Love.

feeling.

New feelings.
I've never felt before.

It's amazing!

So real, it's scary!

Makes me feel alive.

I'm happy.

=]

Love.

BEST.

?

EVER!

=]

Love.

running through my head.

I have been reminded of Justin many times in this week!

Sunday: Natalie
Monday: Kiley & Martin
Today: Tatu song playing.

I think that I need to visit him.
He needs people who love him.

He was like a brother to me,
why do I have to think about it so much?

Tatu: All the thing she said, all the things she said, running through my head, running through my head, all the things she said. It is not enough.

Do I really look like one of those girls, or was he just messing with me?

Love.

groundhog's day.

First of all,
I actually really like that movie!

Phil saw his shadow, so we will have winter for another 6 weeks.
But he's only 39% accurate, so should I believe it?
What does winter really mean in southern California?
I guess some more rain.

I'm okay with that.

I wasn't here for the crazy storms, so I'd still like some more rain.

Now if I had to relive a day over & over until I finally got it right,
I would try to kill myself too.

But it's a good lesson.

I just hope that I am living everyday to the fullest.
That I'm doing what I was meant to do.

I think today will end up being a great day.

=]

p.s. Both of my history classes are great. Highlights of my tues/thurs, but I think Biology is going to make this a very long semester!

Love.

happyness.

I think I deserve it.
I've gone through enough already!

I just need to listen to my heart this time.
I can't always rely on my brain to help me.

<3

Love.

p.s. I know it's spelled wrong =]

chronically

single!

Am I too independent minded?
I think I'm ready.
We'll see what happens.

ps.
I <3 She&Him
I wish I could sing like Zooey!
I want to be more like her.
The only celebrity I would try to be like.
LOL

She sings beautifully,
wears the cutest outfits,
and seems very classy!

Love.

realize.

I write things in here that I don't even tell my closest friends.
I am so strange.
What's wrong with me?

I remembered other things I have learned:
Not to have a person in between.
It's happened with every single guy I've "dated" or whatever.
Although it's only been 3 LOL
I don't know why.
But NEVER again!

I can't waste my time anymore.
Potential doesn't mean anything.

I can't expect anything from anyone.
Until they give me reason to do so!
I already learned that,
but for some reason haven't implemented it fully!
Just another reminder I guess.

& I need to listen to Rilo Kiley!
just give a little love to get a little love.
A LITTLE BIT!

I am happy with myself.
Understanding things helps so much!

Love.

official...

...ly over.

How did I know what he was going to say?

I get over things so easily, it kinda scares me.
Like there is something wrong with me.
I feel like I'm kinda mean too.
I hope not!

I learned a lot.
More about myself & what I need.
What I want from a relationship,
from a man who wants me in his life.
Who wants to be apart of mine.

I just hope I'm enough for someone to want that.
To want me.
Is that bad?
I hope not.

love.