memorization

L'HOMME QUI TE RESSEMBLE

J'ai frappé à ta porte
J'ai frappé à ton cœur
Pour avoir un bon lit
Pour avoir un bon feu
Pourquoi me repousser ?
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Pourquoi me demander
Si je suis d'Afrique
Si je suis d'Amérique
Si je suis d'Asie
Si je suis d'Europe?
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Pourquoi me demander
La longueur de mon nez
L'épaisseur de mes lèvres
La couleur de ma peau
Et le nom de mes dieux ?
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Je ne suis pas un noir
Je ne suis pas un rouge
Je ne suis pas un jaune,
Je ne suis pas un blanc.
Mais je ne suis qu'un homme,
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Ouvre-moi ta porte
Ouvre-moi ton cœur
Car je suis un homme
L'homme de tous les temps,
L'homme de tous les cieux,
L'homme qui te ressemble !

de René Philombe

i am earth dragon

Jan 23, 1928 to Feb 9, 1929
Feb 17, 1988 to Feb 5, 1989

Dragon people are the most eccentric in the Chinese Zodiac. Soaring high into the serene heavens, they can be stubborn, passionate, excitable, honest, and brave, wear purple and walk barefoot in public fountains. They listen to their own drummer, thank you very much, while the rest of the world stands in amazement. People always admire their individuality and feisty personality. Dragons are capable of doing great work for mankind and they inspire trust in almost everyone. The Dragon symbolizes life and growth and is said to bring the five blessings: harmony, virtue, riches, fulfillment and longevity.

f you make friends with the Earth Dragon, you have a friend for life! Friendship is a big-time commitment which they show through uncommon kindness, caring, and giving spirit. When youngsters, Earth Dragons are valued by their teachers and playmates and when older, by their superiors, colleagues, and social circle. It's no wonder! Hardworking and talented, these well-rounded Dragons have a lively imagination which transforms the atmosphere. They are able to do many things well and receive many accolades during their very successful careers and good money to boot. These Dragons are wildly impulsive in money matters. If they see it, they buy it. When they buy it, it's out of sight out of mind, forgotten in the toy box. Not too late to change these wasteful spending habits, you know! Like most Dragons, those of the Earth don't like to rush Love. They like doing what comes naturally, steady rhythm, beginning from friendship and igniting into the exhilaration of falling in love when it's time. Earth Dragons want long-lasting relationships, not tumbling tumble weeds. After the male dragon has gotten over his playboy stage, he is the biggest convert of all to the joys of the everlasting Relationship.

source=http://www.tuvy.com/entertainment/horoscope/earth_dragon.htm

aunt elisha?

I've pretty much just realized that I'm an aunt to two kids in this world!
Dakota is such an amazing boy and I am so happy that I got to meet him this summer!
He can be a little out there ... but I bet I was way weird when I was 6!
haha
I just need to meet Taylor!
He must be so cute ...

Speaking of family ...
My cousin, his wife and baby Alex are coming for New Years!
I am soo excited!
It's like I've grown up with no family except my Grandma.
I have met my cousins and uncles and aunts ...
but they never keep in touch
and it seems like they don't care ...

I don't want to be that way ...
so I'm going to start writing to my nephew!
Too bad they're in Oklahoma =[
Hopefully they will come back soon tho!

Peace & <33

i want ...

my lip ring back!
and i have to get a tattoo by the end of the year ...
im just not sure what to get!!!
i mean i have a whole bunch of ideas
but i dont know which one to get right now and where!
ill post it when i get one!

i need to ...

make a change ...
with my hair!
my mom wants me to dye the old bleach parts back to my real color.
but i'm really not sure!
it's hard to choose ...
but i do think i want a drastic change
shorter but not short.
with diff color
and little bit diff cut!

i'm such a ...

hippie ...
today was fun ...

There were some army guys/recruiters repelling from MH[Macarthy Hall],
so my friend Adriana and I made some signs and stood next to them.
Just spreading the PEACE!!!
haha

I've never done that before but it was so cool just making a statement.
Some people acknowledged us and were nice ...
others were saying stupid stuff ... but it's ok.

I can't continue to sit around and not do anything
about a war that I don't agree with!

BTW:
I totally respect our troops that are out there;
and that's why I want them back home!
They shouldn't have to die or kill innocent people anymore.

erratic

if anyone asked me to define my life in one word...
it would have to be with the word: erratic.
i can change anything about my life and it would be okay.
i chronically want change and i am happy with it.
i've changed somethings recently and it makes me feel better.
that is probably why i've never really had a best friend.
or a real relationship with a guy.
i am not some one that needs to be fixed.
just one that needs to be appreciated, accepted
for who I am.

and now I'm late for class.

crooked teeth.

for some reason i really love this picture of my teeth x-rays.



and i've recently realized A LOT!!!
It makes me very happy =]

I love learning...

but man ...
school can be so boring sometimes!
Its okay tho;
because today is going to be awesome!
I'm so excited;
UCLA --> The Klaxons
yay!

last night

was definitely worth the wait.
can't wait for more though.

humility.

This past week I have learned a lot about being a humble person.
I can't recall at the moment of any huge time when I had a humbling experience,
but I have paid a lot of attention at church and have been able to practice it.
There is nobody in this world that I am above or below,
and I hope I act like that all of my life.
Last Sunday the Scriptures were all about humility and how to use it.
Jesus said to invite the poor and crippled to your feast,
because they can't pay you back.
Doing this will take you up to His Kingdom.
If you invite your friends and family,
they will end up inviting you to something later.

Today I finally met the homeless person I always see close to my house.
His name is Steve, and he lives under a tree.
He looks really young, and that's what make me so sad.
He is such a nice, and humble person himself.
I can see so much of Jesus inside of him.
After talking to him for a minute he offered me some of his lunch.
All I can think is that he has to be a good person.
I hope to see him tomorrow and talk to him some more.
[I could barely hear him today.]
It is hard for me to try and get to know a homeless person.
But I think it is something I have to do right now to grow.
I have grown so much in so many other ways,
and I think I need to prove to myself
that I can practice what Jesus has taught me.

no more

lip ring ...
as of today.
i'm kinda sad ...
but i'm happy to have an
almost normal lip back again ...

BEST NIGHT EVER!!!

dang ...
moving units was so awesome!
we all got to the front ...
robert touched blake's hand ...
brett got a water ...
then a beer from blake ...
it felt like slow motion.

omg ...
best concert i've ever been to ...
and i turned nineteen!

new schedule ...
yess!!!

i wish

that everyone in the world could just be equal
not the same
but treated equally
like humans
will it ever be possible?

btw. I really want to watch Across the Universe.
Comes out September 28 =[ boo

just a thought

TEXAS - day two

woke up late ...
at about noon ...
thought i had to be in comp... oops not the song

watched some degrassi and
i love new york most of the day

ate dinner ...
then went bowling
which was fun

came back home
and worked a TON on my
myspace ...
so you should check it out ..
and comment/or whatever!

Flight with Shawn White.

Texas Trip - Day One

The first flight to Denver was pretty cool ...
My brother saw this guy that looked like Shawn White ...
but I didn't think it was him so we didn't say anything to him.
Then when the flight was over...
someone over the speaker said that there was someone waiting for Shawn White.

So we flied in an airplane with Shawn White ....
I guess the American Express commercial IS true!
haha

Now we're in Texas and it's really humid and kinda hot ....
but the trip should be fun ...
I'll be updating!

Much Love!!!

Cavil at Rest and Four Eyed Monsters

Check this band out because they are AMAZING!!!

and watch this movie!!!

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i have wanted to do this for a long time!

so yesterday i got my lip pierced!
i stopped at this tattoo/piercing shop in fullerton
i had seen it many times before ...
and asked how much it would be.

they told me and i wasn't sure i wanted to pay that much.
they asked me if i wanted to do it ...
so i just did.
i had wanted it for sooo long!
finally.

the reason i did it by myself is because ...
i didn't want my mom to say that i was influenced
by a friend....
i did it on my own!

very happy!

i need ...

some random excitement in my life.
spontaneity.

i can't wait until arise!!!

and either florida or texas.
hmmm....
still can't decide!

and nyyyyy!!!

I couldn't believe it.

I saw this video last night, and it made me so mad.
It reminds me of the walk outs in the sixties.
And all this time I thought things were getting better.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UFdNkXJMH9A

hateful people

just continue to try to make you look bad.
i really don't care.
i'm soooo dgaf right now.

it makes me numb just to think of what i could have done differently.
should have never got involved.
but it's too late now ... and at least i got some more trust issues out of it.
i don't know if i can even trust anyone ... i pick the wrong people.
but i am so over it ... i just needed all of the negative out of my life,
and it's finally out.
to come back NEVER again.
I thank the Lord.

it isn't hard for me to see the glass half full,
even now.
i need to surround myself with people like me,
who love life and people.
not want to make themselves look good, and are in it just for that.
i can't associate myself with that kind of shit.
no more stupid games for me.

I need time to heal me.
I have already forgiven ... but I will never forget.
and NEVER go back down that road.
NEVER.

p.s. it's still sad to think that some people will continue to think they are the victim, when it's just that they are so fucked up in their head ... that they don't know what it even means anymore. everyone should seek professional help. maybe the time is now. i know i'm sane after seeing a therapist, you should still wonder.

peachcake.

is the best ...
top three on my list!

i am sooo excited for tonight.
i'm sporting my awesome tye-dye shirt
to support.
i know you're not supposed to wear the band's shirt...
but i love them so much and they're opening ...
so i gotta!

CERAMICS!

so i went to a demo today at school.
well i'm still here but ya.

it was soooo awesome!
i am falling in love.

i'm seriously thinking about switching majors.
i LOVE art.
and it's sooo much fun to make it.

so hard to make decisions.

now i know ...

why i try not to use hate ...

when referring to people.


some things are so unexplainable.

i just need to forgive ... but NEVER forget

camel no. 9

cutest ever cigz ... love them ... now in my possession.

so i made a vlog ....

yup ... here it is!



check my youtube

69 Things You May Not Have Known About Me.

1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
cheap ass vodka

2. Do you like ice cream?
omg .... one of the best things to eat

3. Are you in love?
definitely not

4. Who was the last person you talked to on aim?
monica yesterday

5. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
hmm ... when i went to agua caliente in the desert.

6. Are you happy?
for the most part.

7. Have you had sex in the past 24 hours?
neverrr

8. Are you shy or outgoing?
depends on the situation ... but i think i'm in between

9. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
i've never let it happen.

10. last thing you ate?
del taco veggie works burrito

11. Do you wish you were some place else right now?
omg yes.

13. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
yes from my grandma.

14. AIM or MSN?
AIM

16. Love or $?
Love

17. Who do you like right now?
i don't have a crush on any one guy ... i'm still looking

19. When you say I love you, do you mean it?
definitely

20. Last restaurant you went to?
i don't know .....

21. Who was the last person to call you?
malaysia

22. What's your sign?
leo

23. Do you like school?
depends which subject

24. Is there something you want to tell someone?
lots of things i want to tell people ... but i just can't

25. If you could change something about your past, would you?
yes .... quite a few

26. Where does most of your family live?
hmm ... all over the world.

27. Do you want to get married?
Yes but i don't think i will.

28. Ever been called a hoe/slut?
only by my friends who are joking

29. Ever been called a bitch?
probably .... but not to my face.

31. What do you do on your spare time?
help at church, go online, listen to music, go to showsss!!

32. Have you ever experienced true love?
neverrr

33. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?
a little bit ... but not like hardcore

34. Honestly, can words describe your feelings?
no, i've tried but i sound dumb

35. Myspace or Facebook?
myspace is wayyy better than facebook ... but i do have a face book.

36. Do you have T-Mobile?
nope

37. Favorite food?
i like a lot of food ... just no meat!

38. Do you sometimes wish you were someone else?
not really .... i just hope i get as many chances as the next person

40. Are you an outcast in school?
i think i was like in the middle in high school ... but now YESSS!!!

41. If you could spend the rest of your life with your bf/gf, would you?
never had one!

42. Do you have any talents?
yes?

43. Ever been in a wedding?
partially

44. Do you have any children?
nope

45. Last movie you saw?
coyote ugly on abc

46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
not really ... i wish i could miss someone.

47. Did you take a nap today?
nope

49. Ever been on a cruise?
neverrr

50. Favorite vacation spot?
pretty much anywhere i could explore and relax

51. Favorite genre of music?
everyyy

52. Label yourself?
this is hard .... elisha!

53. Ever met anyone famous before?
yes ... but not a list famous

54. Favorite actor/actress?
lately zack braff/jim carrey and natalie portman/kate winslet

56. Are you multi-tasking right now?
nope

57. Could you handle being in the military?
i regard myself to highly for that shit

58. Are you hungry or thirsty?
neither

59. Favorite fast food restaurant?
i don't know ...

61. What is your average cell phone bill?
i don't know ...

62. Do you own a camera phone?
yes ... but really old and sucky

63. Ever had to take a sobriety test?
neverrr

65. When is your birthday?
august 12, 1988

66. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
i don't know ...

67. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
too manyyy

68. What do you do when you're bored?
hmm ... nothing?

69. Last place you were at?
st. mary magdalene's parish

random.

i was at malaysia's yesterday and i tried out her web cam!
it was funny.
here's the vid.





and my brother and i at the library!

a while ago



i'm working on the panda fest video!
almost done!

my dna.

stupid shit.

is what i'd use to
describe my life this week.


how long do i have to wait for a friend?
it sucks.

quirkyalones.

This is sooo me.

Who are the quirkyalones? There are many definitions, but we'll start with this one. Quirkyalones are people who resist the tyranny of coupledom. Oddly enough, we quirkyalones also tend to be romantics. We resist the tyranny of coupledom because we would prefer to be open to the possibilities that life has to offer than be in an unsatisfying relationship. That is, to date for the sake of dating, or be in a relationship for the sake of being part of a couple.

How quirkyalone are you?
My score was 103. Very quirkyalone:
Relatives may give you quizzical looks, and so may friends, but you know in your heart of hearts that you are following your inner voice. Though you may not be romancing a single person, you are romancing the world. Celebrate your freedom on National Quirkyalone Day, February 14th!

Go to quirkyalone.net to find out if you are!
Finally, a definition to my life!

unSMMOOTH party.

here are the pictures!






it was way awesome.

the results.

ughh.
the cute train guy
didn't do anything

why is it that all guys do
is look at girls

there should be a rule
that you can't look at a girl
if you aren't going to talk to her!

gosh ..
if only

so next time i see him i'm going to
have to go sit next to him?

whatever.

i'll do it.
just because i have a
weird crush

i don't even know his name.

we'll just call him: ctg.

what if those were his initials.
wierd.

on the way home.

So ...
I finally saw the cute train guy ...
waiting for the bus.
and now he's waiting for the train ...
but I don't want to like talk to him first!

I really think he wants to talk to me ...
we'll see what happens on the train I guess.

This guy asked him something in spanish ...
and he speaks or understands it!

I don't know why that makes me happy.
I guess finding anything out about him does.

He is seriously perfect looking ...
and I like his style
which is a big plus.

I'll make another post if anything happens.

new video post. and camcorder.

hope you liked it.
www.youtube.com/loveyamuchqt

Positive Action!

so...
i made a new video.
finally.



@SHS Fashion Show.

What is in?

So...
Today I was just sitting at my kiosk ... working...
Okay, I was online.

And these two girls come up.
It seemed as though one of them wanted to ask me something but she didn't.
So I just kept 'working'.

Then one of them finally came up to me.
She was like...
'We're in fashion school and we're doing a project on what's in/out,
can we take some pictures of your sunglasses?'

And of course I said it was okay.

They were done and they came up to me and asked if they could take a picture of me.
So I stood up and one of them was like, 'Omg, her shoes are cute take a picture!'
Then they took a picture of me.

So...
I guess I'm in.
haha.
I never would have thought!

Probably the most random experience at work!

Seeing People

The thing that is really weird about my school is seeing people who I used to talk to, and haven't seen in a really long time.
For instance, this girl named Ashlyn from Kindergarten.
Waiting for the bus to come.
And right now, Chris.
My friends ex-boyfriend.
Wow.

It feels really weird.

btw. I didn't see cute train guy this morning :[

hob anaheim

was good at first.
but then it sucked when stupid moving units started.
i really don't like them anymore.
but the willowz are awesome.
check them out on the eternal sunshine soundtrack.

people that are stupid and push little people down suck.
mostly guys too.

last night killed hob for me.
i'm NEVER going back to that shit again.
at least the security guards were nice.

it really IS the house of bitchezz.

from now on i'm only going to nice people's [bands] showzz.

Reality.

It takes forever to really hit me.

Even when I know something is so true.

I understand and comprehend it.

But it's so unimaginable that I can't believe it really happened.

I learned of something on Monday.

Of which I can't say anything about.

Which is always hard for me.

But I can't even imagine anything like it happening.

It still hasn't quite hit me.

Reality is hard.

Ugghh.

Coachella List Alphabetized.

AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!
anathallo is on this list which therefore means i need to be there!!!
i am sooo excited!
this is going to be the best ever...


!!!
Air
Erol Alkan
Lily Allen
Anathallo
The Arcade Fire
Arctic Monkeys
The Avett Brothers
Benny Benassi
Andrew Bird
Bjork
The Black Keys
Blonde Redhead
Bojones
Brazilian Girls
Brother Ali
Busdriver
Manu Chao
Circa Survive
Jarvis Cocker
Coco Rosie
Comedians Of Comedy
Cornelius
The Coup
The Cribs
Crowded House
CSS
The Decemberists
Digitalism
DJ Heather
DJ Shadow
Roky Erickson And The Explosives
Evil Nine
Explosions In The Sky
Fair To Midland
Faithless
The Feeling
Felix Da Housecat
Lupe Fiasco
The Fields
Fountains Of Wayne
The Frames
The Fratellis
Ghostface Killah
Girl Talk
Gogol Bordello
Jose Gonzales
The Good, The Bad And The Queen
Gotan Project
Grizzly Bear
Happy Mondays
Richie Hawtin
Hot Chip
Infected Mushroom
Interpol
The Kooks
Jack's Mannequin
Junior Boys
Justice
Kaiser Chiefs
Kings Of Leon
Klaxons
Kokono No. 1
LCD Soundsystem
Amos Lee
Stephen Marley feat Jr. Gong
Mika
MSTRKRFT
Willie Nelson
New Pornographers
Nickel Creek
Nightwatchman
The Noisettes
Of Montreal
Ozomatli
Peaches
Peeping Tom
Peter, Bjorn & John
Pharaohe Monche
Placebo
Pop Levi
Rage Against The Machine
The Rapture
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Mike Relm
Damien Rice
Rodrigo Y Gabriela
The Roots
Satellite Party
Silversun Pickups
Sonic Youth
Soulwax
Spank Rock
Sparklehorse
Regina Spektor
Tapes 'n Tapes
Tiesto
Tilly And The Wall
Tokyo Police Club
Travis
Paul Van Dyk
Julieta Venegas
VNV Nation
Rufus Wainwright
We Are Scientists
Gillian Welch
Amy Winehouse
Yeva

the new year with coachella.

so it's been a looong while!
i've been writing in my new journal that i made instead.
it's soo cute! and private.






i've been looking up new shows that i could go to but come up with nothing!
but i know that i really want to go to coachella this year!
and camp and everything.
it's going to be so fun!
i've been researching it and everything.
the tickets aren't on sale yet ... but as soon as they are i will buy.
i have to start saving right away!
the bummer is that no camcorders are allowed in the venue but it's okay on the campground.
well i just need to find a group of friends (18+) that want to go with me!
i can't wait!

this friday and saturday are going to be fun.
friday-fashion show @ shs w/positive action
saturday-maya's sweet sixteen
sunday-smmooth fun too!

i made a new youtube vid.
veggie fest.