well ...

I'm really proud of myself for going on this everyday.
Although I really need to finish my post about last week!!!
I will do that tonight probably!

reading and school

I'm almost finished with Breaking Dawn!
(book 4 of the Twilight series)

And I need to prepare for a presentation in a little over an hour!
I have two today ... both for French classes!

Craziest Week Ever!

SO .....
I NEED to write a very detailed blog about this past week ...
I will start, but I won't be able to finish today!

Monday-
I went out to Yorba Linda to speed walk/jog in the rain with Kiley!
We went around her neighborhoods and the distance was about 4 miles.
It was fun!
Went back to Val's and took a shower to go to the movies.
Anne met us there to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic.
I really liked it ... until the power went out and we had to leave =/
We watched most of the movie, there was probably about 1/4 left.

After going to the store with Anne, we went back to Val's and Kiley made some chili for dinner. (Anne had to leave before we ate.)
Kiley's friend Joey came over too.

Monday felt weird to me because there was no school, but it seemed to me like I was wrong for not going to school. I don't know why!!!

Tuesday-
I only had my late class that day because my Chem lab was cancelled!
So I drove to school for a change.
In my Leadership Class we watch a movie about Martin Luther King Jr.'s beginnings as a leader. All about the bus boycotts, and we will finish watching it next week. I really like it, but I forgot the name of it!!!

After I went to Dan's house to pick up his GPS system for my trip on Wednesday.

Then I went to six:30 the Young Adult meetings at St. Paul the Apostle in Chino Hills. It was nice, reading scripture and reflecting on questions. Then most of us went to Subway afterwards to eat dinner.

It was a nice night.

Wednesday-
(I'm tired of typing so much ... so I will finish later)
Make sure you come back to read it ... I promise it's good!
Anne picked me

Why am I so depressing?

I'm not depressed by the way!
haha ....
I just sound so sad!
I'm not tho ... just venting about stupid shit.

I wasn't raised to put up with stupid people,
so it's hard for me to HAVE to stick around until the end of the semester.

Although ...
there are sooo many people that make it soooo worthwhile!

Plus ...
I'm making new friends at St. Paul's which are awesome!
I love hanging out with them and just having fun!

God has led me to many wonderful people.
And I am very grateful!

p.s.
I'm going to Arizona this week/weekend!
I think I'm staying in a hostel?
I hope I have fun!

I like how ...

I'm not invited to anything my friends are doing tonight.
I just accidentally find out about them.
And people give me different excuses about why I wasn't invited.

whatever.

It was my choice not to hang out with some people.
So I'm not mad ...
I just think it's funny that there is more than one thing happening tonight and I wasn't invited to both.

love, love, love

the color of my blog now!

It looks way more prep ...
which is always awesome ... lol

I made a mission statement in my leadership class yesterday.
When I get it back ... I will need to put it up!

I went out to the Brea Mall with Kiley today which was so fun!
It had been 6 days since I had seen her!
Weird.

I got a back rub in Aveda which was wonderful!!!
I smell REALLY good now
=]

love

being myself.

I am comfortable with who I am.
It makes me happy, but it bugs me that people don't notice.

I usually feel like an outcast, even with my friends.
They don't listen to me. At least barely ever.
I have always been different, so I shouldn't expect anything else.
It is just very frustrating.
The closest to culture I have is the Catholic church.
And I still don't feel that close to the people.

Maybe it's my fault for saying things in a weird way or something.
I am the strangest person I know, and I don't think that anyone can understand me.
Hopefully someone does someday, and that it's a boy so I can marry him.

Everyone always tells me how innocent I am.
Or how young I act.
But I don't think they know me.

I strive to be child-like.
For the Lord, and my in my everyday life.
I love how children can express themselves and live in the moment.
I hope I can someday achieve that.

But at the same time, I don't think I am very innocent.
I know a lot about this world, and I think I am wise.
Well ... someone told me that once, and I think it's true.

I see our world in a different perspective.
I learn from other people's mistakes.
I live my life the way I see fit.
I have seen a lot of hurt and brokenness,
and I make choices in my life to avoid the worst.
Maybe I am too cautious, but I have to protect myself.

It takes me too long to forgive.
But I never forget.

I do regret things I have done in my life,
but without them I wouldn't be me.

I dress the way I do because I like it.
If I think it is cute, then I will wear it.
Not because I want others to like it.

I like being unique,
but sometimes I hate being different.

I am not simple.

Part of me is the society I live in,
but I'm not very much like it.

I am the weirdest person you will ever meet.