My Christmas.

was great!
I think I am a glass half full person.
I make the best of most situations.
I don't dwell on the bad.
It just messes things up.
I'd rather have fun than be in a sucky mood.
The only boring people are the ones that have to be entertained.
My people aren't like that.
We make everytime a good time =]
Without any help!
haha

I love Dora & Crystal.
And I miss them!
They will be home soon though.
Everything will go back to normal.

I watched Romeo & Juliet last night and today.
I wish I could speak like them and not sound weird.
LOL

I thought of a perfect name for a girl last night.
But I didn't write it down, and now it's bugging me!
I want to remember!!
Haha
I'm such a dork.

I know I like:
Maritsa, or Maritza
And Calista.

Are these really the things I think about?

love.

getting into the holiday mood.

today i hemmed my skirt that I've been wanting to fix for a LONG time!
it reminds me of when my mom, abuelita & I used to make clothes & things.
I want to keep that tradition when I have my own family.
I'm making one of the christmas gifts that I'm giving.
to my favorite =]

Going to a yummy formal dinner tonight.
We are all going to cook together.
Estefania, Jorge, Rene & I
It seems like cooking is a part of me.
I think it's weird when people "can't" cook.
I love doing it, but only for people.
Preferably ones I care about.
Makes me want to make myself a super cute apron!

I've been thinking lately,
after all that is happening in my life,
am I really happy?
And I am.
God has centered me, and I know that I am happy with Him.
He brings wonderful people to my life & I am so thankful.

I am excited to celebrate Jesus' birthday!
It is so different from what I'm used to in the past.
But it is going to be good anyways.

love.

official.

...ly dating exclusively?
LOL
no labeling ...
but we are on the same page,
which is necessary!
=]
best communicator ever!
that is what I NEED.
growth should commence right about now!

love.

p.s. I hope I'm not a pessimist!

getting a new phone.

today!
finally!

yay ...
i'm so excited =]

charming.

I found a charm today in class.
it's a little music note.
gives me a little more confidence.
I'm going to be singing at a mass.
Nerve-wrecking!
I'll just have to pray =]

love.

sorry.

I say that word WAY too much.
I don't even know why!!

it reminds me of the dad on Little Miss Sunshine ...
"Don't apologize Olive. It's a sign of weakness."

I want to stop.
Starting to work on that now!

the secret life of bees.

reading this amazing book at the moment.
it's taking so long to finish & it bugs me.
i wish i read faster.

i think i like this book because i feel like lily.
i have the secrets that i keep to myself.
i never tell ANYONE.
it makes me feel like nobody could love me if they knew.
of course God loves me & i love Him for it.
but humans sometimes have these expectations.
and i can't be perfect.
i'm not perfect.

i guess i just hope people take me for who i am.

love.

"I only have eyes for you."

haha
he makes me smile =]
best quote of last night!
I have found an amazing person.

Crystal, Dora & I had a dinner party, and I think it was a hit.
I learned that I am a great hostess! LOL
It seemed like most everyone enjoyed themselves.
I definitely had a great time!

So happy we followed through and made it happen.
I can't wait to have a house & have dinner parties or just get-togethers myself!
I really do feel like I'm meant to be a wife and mother.
& it's not me that has to have it.
I could live my life any other way, but it seems like God is putting this on my heart.
He gave me all the right skills for it too.
Also, a great mother.

I'm excited for that part of my life,
even though I'm not ready for it yet.
I'm okay with that.

love.

starting new.

it's always so fun & exciting!

& this time it's different.
i really trust him,
he's one of the best people i've ever met.
unforgettable.
i want to give my heart to him,
but it's so scary.
it's a risk,
but it's going slow & i like it that way.
i'm sure about this one =]

i'm so child-like ...
it's easier that way!
i just hope that he thinks i'm unforgettable too.

we'll see what happens ...
but i'm sure it's going to be good,
no great,
no AMAZING!

love.

bicycles.

2 of mine were stolen this week.
disappointing!
one was an old Schwinn road bike that I wanted to fix up!
(it was kinda messed up)
the other was one my friend got & fixed so i could mtn bike.
(but the back tire was flat)

I'm already over it.
I'm ok with it.
It happens.
Plus I didn't use them!

At least I still have my Schwinn Suburban Cruiser!

But I really want to get a road bike now for sure.
Probably an old one I can fix up =]
It will be stored inside of my apartment though.

writing.

i love doing it.
but don't do it enough!

need to start up my journal again.
and remember to write in this thing too!

changing my major to history
with a minor in french
TOMORROW!!

very exciting.

do work.

I have a Kohl's song stuck in my head.
Not that they play songs I don't like ...
it's just that I've heard them so many times in these past few weeks it's starting to get annoying.
They pop into my head randomly!!

I saw some great things today.
Two men shopping together & enjoying it.
They were talking about how they never find things they like,
and how awesome Kohl's men section is. LOL

There was a mom who brought a blouse to her daughter
& her daughter said, "Who is that for?"
That definitely reminded me of my mom & I!!

the next one.

has to be someone that makes me want to be a better person.

that is the key to my puzzle!

=]

Love.

<3 she & him.

i have recently become obsessed with this band.
zooey deschanel is in it ...
& i love her voice!!
i am such a folksie person haha

fave song of the moment ...

why do you let me stay here?

Why do let me stay here?
All by myself
Why don't you come and play here?
I'm just sitting on the shelf

Why don't you sit right down and stay awhile?
We like the same things and I like your style
Its not a secret; why do you keep it?
I'm just sitting on the shelf

I got to get your presence
Let's make it known
I think you're just so pleasant
I would like you for my own

Why don't you sit right down and make me smile? (uh huh)
You make me feel like I am just a child
Why do you end it?
Just give me credit
I'm just sitting on the shelf

made a few changes/decisions

i quit core team at st. paul's
since i commited to doing confirmation.

once i started working i realized i couldn't do both!!

also ...
trying to be better everyday.
stopped twittering/updating!!
trying to stop using some insults i use everyday
& starting to listen to myself speak so i don't say like so much!!

will be working on a lot!!

Love.

moving on ...

i get over a person SO quickly.
it's very strange.

well i guess i don't usually get too attached ...
so it's not that strange.

haha ... oh well!!

i love meeting new people &
i've started hanging out with new friends lately ...

starting to speak more spanish too!!
i've missed being immersed in a spanish speaking culture.

P.S.
I want to go to Lima, Peru to visit my cousin in January!!

what I want.

live in Paris.

go to Madrid.

& Barcelona!!

I have to study abroad.
There is no other option now!!

All As & Bs this semester!!

Love.

complaints.

my back hurts.
and it is bugging me all the time!

I don't even know why either!!

ughh

i just hope that something happens this weekend makes me super happy
=]

since Benoit is leaving I'm going to be sad

&& I have been becoming more & more sad that Kiley isn't here

dans ma vie

=[

i just don't want to get all frustrated & start crying or something soon.

that's why i need some exciting things to happen!!

haha

Love.

anthropologie.

that store is so amazing!

it makes me want to be a rich stay at home mom!

I will just take the stay at home mom ...
but if I could shop at Anthropologie
I would have soo much fun!!

=]

also ...
I decided I want 3 or 4 kids.

p.s.
School is going good ...
still not sure what I'm going to do about my major!!

that's all for now!

Love.

best week ever.

I think that show is awesome ...
so i want to do something like it about my life every week!

This week has already been the best back to school week ever ...
and it's not over yet!!

I live in an apartment with the best roommates ever!
& i have awesome friends ...
what more can i ask for??

Monday I was at St. Paul's all day working on Confirmation stuff ...
then went to Jorge's newly opened bar to hang out with some friends!
I had a martini, pina colada, and black russian.

Tuesday was my first day of class which went very well!
One of my classes was canceled for the day so i got a nice break.
I took a yoga class at the rec center.
I now know that I need to start exercising a lot more!
My favorite class was definitely Rock Climbing!!
Then at night I got to go to Disneyland with Amy, Sisco & Ricky.

Wednesday I went to watch Chelsea Lately with Amy & Ana!!
Brody Stevens was the warm-up comedian [he was in The Hangover]
Kevin Nealon from Weeds was the guest.
It was a lot of fun!!
Then we went to the 3rd street promenade in Santa Monica.
I was soo exhausted by the end of the day.

Thursday is the longest day of classes for me.
Still not over yet!
Got to go do some yoga =]

Love.

i knew it was coming.

I don't know how I know these things.

I seriously I have some kind of gift.

Although it only pertains to my life,
if it directly affects me.

I just know that certain things are going to happen.

----------------------------------------

The "relationship" is over.

But he still wants me in his life?
It is just too weird.

I can try to just be friends ...
we'll see how that goes.




Love.

summer.

the most awesome time of the year!
especially august
LOL

going on a random turn around trip in a little bit ...

to San Fransisco!!

I'm sooo excited

=]

live in love.

that is definitely my motto.
ephesians 5:1&2 is my fave =]

it was read in mass the beginning of my bday week!!

and two weeks before that my name was in the first reading.

love it!!

just thought of this & had to share



I can't wait for this year in Confirmation & Youth Ministry!
It will definitely be awesome =]

No matter what happens!!

inspiration.

I just came back from watching Julie & Julia.
So of course I decided to blog!
HAHA

I absolutely LOVED the movie!!
It was so awesome how Julie was able to blog about a specific goal for a whole year!

This got me thinking ... through the movie I might add.
I NEED to blog. Write my life away.
Also, start cooking!!

I have been very busy either living life, or being lazy!!

Cooking is not one of my fortes.
But I'm not bad at it.
I just need to practice, and see what I like making.

-----------------------------------

Fun, fun, fun week!

First of all it was my 21st birthday!!
So now nobody can tell me I can't go inside a building anymore ...
well if it's for the reason that there's an age limit at least!
LOL

This was probably the best birthday celebration I've had yet!
& it still isn't over yet!!

But really I have realized more and more that I want to get married
& cook for my husband. Then have some kids & take care of them.

Just all around happiness.
I want to have love all around me, and people ... lots of people.

I want to be in love.

So far I have been trying to live in love as Jesus wants me to =]

I think I deserve it!!

Watching love in the movies makes me want it more & more!!
I hope it happens soon.

Love.

living life

& forgetting to blog!!

I need to be more disciplined ...

but I am starting to work out!

So far everyday this week except Thursday.

That was my rest day!

Just need to make sure I do it today too!!

=]

love.

WEIRD.

that is probably the best word to describe me!
it depicts my whole life and personality.
although i do and own some main stream things ...
i am mostly ... weird!

i usually don't even match anyone i'm around!
[either in style or colors worn]

but i definitely like it ...
i don't know how i got this way!

haha

yes, that's about it!

love.

new feelings?

I know I am very immature in some areas that other people my age aren't.
It doesn't matter, I like it!


I am so innocent, especially when it comes to guys.
But it's refreshing.
Having feelings like this when you are older makes it so much more real.

Just letting a guy touch me other than a hug is a big deal to me.
I know what I'm worth, and I don't even know how I learned it really.
I just have to figure that out to teach my kin in the future.


One thing I have learned so far?
1. Don't get your hopes up, it's not worth it in the long run.

Another?
2. Honesty IS the best policy! It's so much easier that way.

Good feelings?
3. Holding hands is awesome, especially how natural it feels.

I need to write all the things I like and don't from now on.
I am still vague, I hope not many read this.

=]

love.

Last night.

April 25th, 2009

Wow, very eventful!
Who would have known?

I think Kiley knew what was going to happen.

I don't have many words for the night.
From now on, I'm open.

Definitely one for the books.

love.

personality

I am an ESTP.
I'm a Doer.

I think it is very accurate ...
not 100%, but at least 80%

I am a kid at heart,
and I think I will always be that way.

I love it!

The funny part is that I look really young too!
But I do think I am mature enough for my age too.

I'm excited for things to come
", <---- supposed to be a new smiley face i made up! lol

love.

disneylandia

last night was super fun ...
Andrew's birthday at disneyland!

I am very glad that I went.

The most fun was the last ride.
Indiana Jones.
& we went on it twice in a row.

& the cute guy that worked there said hello.
haha

I want to go back and say hi again soon.

=]

love.

too good to be true?

always.
no ...
that was a lie.

There is a five dollar bill out there.
I just have to wait for it!
How long???

I just don't have the patience!

Actually it's a problem I have noticed lately.
God is definitely testing it.
Ughh ...
Why does that have to be the virtue to test???

Why can't it just be easier?

I guess it is better this way.
More time for EVERYTHING else!















OK.

OFFICIALLY over it.
=]

I guess that's the good thing about me.
It doesn't take long with some things!
Plus, it's definitely not worth it!

Weird.
I can find the good and bad in almost everything.
Another power?
maybe!

love.

LENT!!!

Ok so ...
This is definitely the best lent I have ever experienced!
I remember the talk Mark Hart gave at RE Congress ..
He talked about his friend who is making this Lent like it is his last 40 days to live.
I really think I am doing that.
I have had so many great conversations and experiences.
I feel a conversion of my heart.
I just wish other people I know could go through this with me too!
There are a few though.
And I think God has sent them to me for this reason!

Oh my goodness!!!
It's soooo exciting.
I just want to spread the light of the Lord!

=]
love.

reading blogs.

I have started really appreciating reading people's blogs lately.
Yesterday I read Ki's blog #27 and it made me realize a lot!

[more later]

san fransisco

is awesome!

I went over the weekend with Amy and Kiley to visit Barbara.
We took the Greyhound bus!
Which was definitely interesting!
I will post pictures of our trip later!

well ...

I'm really proud of myself for going on this everyday.
Although I really need to finish my post about last week!!!
I will do that tonight probably!

reading and school

I'm almost finished with Breaking Dawn!
(book 4 of the Twilight series)

And I need to prepare for a presentation in a little over an hour!
I have two today ... both for French classes!

Craziest Week Ever!

SO .....
I NEED to write a very detailed blog about this past week ...
I will start, but I won't be able to finish today!

Monday-
I went out to Yorba Linda to speed walk/jog in the rain with Kiley!
We went around her neighborhoods and the distance was about 4 miles.
It was fun!
Went back to Val's and took a shower to go to the movies.
Anne met us there to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic.
I really liked it ... until the power went out and we had to leave =/
We watched most of the movie, there was probably about 1/4 left.

After going to the store with Anne, we went back to Val's and Kiley made some chili for dinner. (Anne had to leave before we ate.)
Kiley's friend Joey came over too.

Monday felt weird to me because there was no school, but it seemed to me like I was wrong for not going to school. I don't know why!!!

Tuesday-
I only had my late class that day because my Chem lab was cancelled!
So I drove to school for a change.
In my Leadership Class we watch a movie about Martin Luther King Jr.'s beginnings as a leader. All about the bus boycotts, and we will finish watching it next week. I really like it, but I forgot the name of it!!!

After I went to Dan's house to pick up his GPS system for my trip on Wednesday.

Then I went to six:30 the Young Adult meetings at St. Paul the Apostle in Chino Hills. It was nice, reading scripture and reflecting on questions. Then most of us went to Subway afterwards to eat dinner.

It was a nice night.

Wednesday-
(I'm tired of typing so much ... so I will finish later)
Make sure you come back to read it ... I promise it's good!
Anne picked me

Why am I so depressing?

I'm not depressed by the way!
haha ....
I just sound so sad!
I'm not tho ... just venting about stupid shit.

I wasn't raised to put up with stupid people,
so it's hard for me to HAVE to stick around until the end of the semester.

Although ...
there are sooo many people that make it soooo worthwhile!

Plus ...
I'm making new friends at St. Paul's which are awesome!
I love hanging out with them and just having fun!

God has led me to many wonderful people.
And I am very grateful!

p.s.
I'm going to Arizona this week/weekend!
I think I'm staying in a hostel?
I hope I have fun!

I like how ...

I'm not invited to anything my friends are doing tonight.
I just accidentally find out about them.
And people give me different excuses about why I wasn't invited.

whatever.

It was my choice not to hang out with some people.
So I'm not mad ...
I just think it's funny that there is more than one thing happening tonight and I wasn't invited to both.

love, love, love

the color of my blog now!

It looks way more prep ...
which is always awesome ... lol

I made a mission statement in my leadership class yesterday.
When I get it back ... I will need to put it up!

I went out to the Brea Mall with Kiley today which was so fun!
It had been 6 days since I had seen her!
Weird.

I got a back rub in Aveda which was wonderful!!!
I smell REALLY good now
=]

love

being myself.

I am comfortable with who I am.
It makes me happy, but it bugs me that people don't notice.

I usually feel like an outcast, even with my friends.
They don't listen to me. At least barely ever.
I have always been different, so I shouldn't expect anything else.
It is just very frustrating.
The closest to culture I have is the Catholic church.
And I still don't feel that close to the people.

Maybe it's my fault for saying things in a weird way or something.
I am the strangest person I know, and I don't think that anyone can understand me.
Hopefully someone does someday, and that it's a boy so I can marry him.

Everyone always tells me how innocent I am.
Or how young I act.
But I don't think they know me.

I strive to be child-like.
For the Lord, and my in my everyday life.
I love how children can express themselves and live in the moment.
I hope I can someday achieve that.

But at the same time, I don't think I am very innocent.
I know a lot about this world, and I think I am wise.
Well ... someone told me that once, and I think it's true.

I see our world in a different perspective.
I learn from other people's mistakes.
I live my life the way I see fit.
I have seen a lot of hurt and brokenness,
and I make choices in my life to avoid the worst.
Maybe I am too cautious, but I have to protect myself.

It takes me too long to forgive.
But I never forget.

I do regret things I have done in my life,
but without them I wouldn't be me.

I dress the way I do because I like it.
If I think it is cute, then I will wear it.
Not because I want others to like it.

I like being unique,
but sometimes I hate being different.

I am not simple.

Part of me is the society I live in,
but I'm not very much like it.

I am the weirdest person you will ever meet.

Loved Toy Story Mania!

It was really fun!
=]
I'm on the left side!