lent

is a very hard time for me this year.
i actually gave up something that i do all the time.
gossip.
it is horrible ...
but i just always do it.
some people probably hate me because of it.
i'm trying to stop ...
i really am.
there was stupid drama going on and i always give my 2 cents.
i think the real reason i gossip is it's important to me.
what ever i talk about brings out some emotion.

this past weekend i went on a retreat.
it was awesome ... one of the best ones in a long time.
confirmation 1 girls are so much fun!
haha
anyways ...
on saturday night we were playin 4 'F's.
it was good because we got to know each other very well.
when it was my turn i was crying the whole time!
and i am not a cryer.
it was weird, but i think i needed it.
this emotion coming out of me about some friendships i have made me realize the reason i talk about them so much.
it really hurts me that everyone gossips ...
but i just continue to do it!
i think i'm ready to stop.
as well as i can.
i shouldn't have been doing it in the first place.
but i fell and have to get back up!
freddy's talk last night helped with reminding me.

it's like i know i have some amazing friends.
but i'll never let anyone in.
i don't know why.
maybe that's another reason i gossip ...
so people won't get so close to me.
many conclusions in just one blog!
i need to hold on to my promise to Jesus!

side note from kiley who got this from a nun @ steubenville:
sticks and stones may break your bones but gossip kills your soul

Hey mickey!

We found him ...
In front of tha sun at DCA!
[= Elisha =]

double frick

the format is splitting up
they just posted the important announcement yesterday.
this sucks
i missed their last performances in cali
and now i can never see them again!





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ughh ...
last day before lent and i won't even enjoy myself.
+ i came to school and both my classes were canceled!

religious

I saw this in a restaurant on saturday.
It's close to my parents office ...
i thought it was kinda cool and really cute.

it seems as though

i have many brothers
one full blood, one half blood
and two not related so far
so many guys remind me of my brother
and it make me treat them like i do with Reuben
it's weird ... but that's how i roll
i wonder how many more are out there.
haha

my baby

is due january 29th
same birthday as my mommy!
even though it was born before
i don't know what i'll name it yet

=]

the last one

i can't believe that i haven't blogged since the END of last semester!
its been like over a month.
well i've been busy socializing
probably the most i've ever done in my life
and i now know why
mankind repeatedly makes me question everything
for instance: why did God give us free will again?
but i guess that's why i've never relied on man.
it's kinda sad but thats just the way it is
it seems as though i have trust problems ...
but i just know that i can't trust man
only HE [God] is perfect!
i just hope this doesn't mess me up in the guy dept.
the thing is that i know that it does
i never let anyone in
or people don't want to let me in
so it kinda goes both ways

i think i think wayyy too much
but i guess it's a good thing
that's why i don't make many mistakes
=]

maybe something about me repels guys
especially the awesome kinds that i could marry

memorization

L'HOMME QUI TE RESSEMBLE

J'ai frappé à ta porte
J'ai frappé à ton cœur
Pour avoir un bon lit
Pour avoir un bon feu
Pourquoi me repousser ?
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Pourquoi me demander
Si je suis d'Afrique
Si je suis d'Amérique
Si je suis d'Asie
Si je suis d'Europe?
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Pourquoi me demander
La longueur de mon nez
L'épaisseur de mes lèvres
La couleur de ma peau
Et le nom de mes dieux ?
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Je ne suis pas un noir
Je ne suis pas un rouge
Je ne suis pas un jaune,
Je ne suis pas un blanc.
Mais je ne suis qu'un homme,
Ouvre-moi, mon frère !

Ouvre-moi ta porte
Ouvre-moi ton cœur
Car je suis un homme
L'homme de tous les temps,
L'homme de tous les cieux,
L'homme qui te ressemble !

de René Philombe

i am earth dragon

Jan 23, 1928 to Feb 9, 1929
Feb 17, 1988 to Feb 5, 1989

Dragon people are the most eccentric in the Chinese Zodiac. Soaring high into the serene heavens, they can be stubborn, passionate, excitable, honest, and brave, wear purple and walk barefoot in public fountains. They listen to their own drummer, thank you very much, while the rest of the world stands in amazement. People always admire their individuality and feisty personality. Dragons are capable of doing great work for mankind and they inspire trust in almost everyone. The Dragon symbolizes life and growth and is said to bring the five blessings: harmony, virtue, riches, fulfillment and longevity.

f you make friends with the Earth Dragon, you have a friend for life! Friendship is a big-time commitment which they show through uncommon kindness, caring, and giving spirit. When youngsters, Earth Dragons are valued by their teachers and playmates and when older, by their superiors, colleagues, and social circle. It's no wonder! Hardworking and talented, these well-rounded Dragons have a lively imagination which transforms the atmosphere. They are able to do many things well and receive many accolades during their very successful careers and good money to boot. These Dragons are wildly impulsive in money matters. If they see it, they buy it. When they buy it, it's out of sight out of mind, forgotten in the toy box. Not too late to change these wasteful spending habits, you know! Like most Dragons, those of the Earth don't like to rush Love. They like doing what comes naturally, steady rhythm, beginning from friendship and igniting into the exhilaration of falling in love when it's time. Earth Dragons want long-lasting relationships, not tumbling tumble weeds. After the male dragon has gotten over his playboy stage, he is the biggest convert of all to the joys of the everlasting Relationship.

source=http://www.tuvy.com/entertainment/horoscope/earth_dragon.htm

aunt elisha?

I've pretty much just realized that I'm an aunt to two kids in this world!
Dakota is such an amazing boy and I am so happy that I got to meet him this summer!
He can be a little out there ... but I bet I was way weird when I was 6!
haha
I just need to meet Taylor!
He must be so cute ...

Speaking of family ...
My cousin, his wife and baby Alex are coming for New Years!
I am soo excited!
It's like I've grown up with no family except my Grandma.
I have met my cousins and uncles and aunts ...
but they never keep in touch
and it seems like they don't care ...

I don't want to be that way ...
so I'm going to start writing to my nephew!
Too bad they're in Oklahoma =[
Hopefully they will come back soon tho!

Peace & <33