hateful people

just continue to try to make you look bad.
i really don't care.
i'm soooo dgaf right now.

it makes me numb just to think of what i could have done differently.
should have never got involved.
but it's too late now ... and at least i got some more trust issues out of it.
i don't know if i can even trust anyone ... i pick the wrong people.
but i am so over it ... i just needed all of the negative out of my life,
and it's finally out.
to come back NEVER again.
I thank the Lord.

it isn't hard for me to see the glass half full,
even now.
i need to surround myself with people like me,
who love life and people.
not want to make themselves look good, and are in it just for that.
i can't associate myself with that kind of shit.
no more stupid games for me.

I need time to heal me.
I have already forgiven ... but I will never forget.
and NEVER go back down that road.
NEVER.

p.s. it's still sad to think that some people will continue to think they are the victim, when it's just that they are so fucked up in their head ... that they don't know what it even means anymore. everyone should seek professional help. maybe the time is now. i know i'm sane after seeing a therapist, you should still wonder.

peachcake.

is the best ...
top three on my list!

i am sooo excited for tonight.
i'm sporting my awesome tye-dye shirt
to support.
i know you're not supposed to wear the band's shirt...
but i love them so much and they're opening ...
so i gotta!

CERAMICS!

so i went to a demo today at school.
well i'm still here but ya.

it was soooo awesome!
i am falling in love.

i'm seriously thinking about switching majors.
i LOVE art.
and it's sooo much fun to make it.

so hard to make decisions.

now i know ...

why i try not to use hate ...

when referring to people.


some things are so unexplainable.

i just need to forgive ... but NEVER forget

camel no. 9

cutest ever cigz ... love them ... now in my possession.

so i made a vlog ....

yup ... here it is!



check my youtube

69 Things You May Not Have Known About Me.

1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
cheap ass vodka

2. Do you like ice cream?
omg .... one of the best things to eat

3. Are you in love?
definitely not

4. Who was the last person you talked to on aim?
monica yesterday

5. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
hmm ... when i went to agua caliente in the desert.

6. Are you happy?
for the most part.

7. Have you had sex in the past 24 hours?
neverrr

8. Are you shy or outgoing?
depends on the situation ... but i think i'm in between

9. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
i've never let it happen.

10. last thing you ate?
del taco veggie works burrito

11. Do you wish you were some place else right now?
omg yes.

13. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
yes from my grandma.

14. AIM or MSN?
AIM

16. Love or $?
Love

17. Who do you like right now?
i don't have a crush on any one guy ... i'm still looking

19. When you say I love you, do you mean it?
definitely

20. Last restaurant you went to?
i don't know .....

21. Who was the last person to call you?
malaysia

22. What's your sign?
leo

23. Do you like school?
depends which subject

24. Is there something you want to tell someone?
lots of things i want to tell people ... but i just can't

25. If you could change something about your past, would you?
yes .... quite a few

26. Where does most of your family live?
hmm ... all over the world.

27. Do you want to get married?
Yes but i don't think i will.

28. Ever been called a hoe/slut?
only by my friends who are joking

29. Ever been called a bitch?
probably .... but not to my face.

31. What do you do on your spare time?
help at church, go online, listen to music, go to showsss!!

32. Have you ever experienced true love?
neverrr

33. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?
a little bit ... but not like hardcore

34. Honestly, can words describe your feelings?
no, i've tried but i sound dumb

35. Myspace or Facebook?
myspace is wayyy better than facebook ... but i do have a face book.

36. Do you have T-Mobile?
nope

37. Favorite food?
i like a lot of food ... just no meat!

38. Do you sometimes wish you were someone else?
not really .... i just hope i get as many chances as the next person

40. Are you an outcast in school?
i think i was like in the middle in high school ... but now YESSS!!!

41. If you could spend the rest of your life with your bf/gf, would you?
never had one!

42. Do you have any talents?
yes?

43. Ever been in a wedding?
partially

44. Do you have any children?
nope

45. Last movie you saw?
coyote ugly on abc

46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
not really ... i wish i could miss someone.

47. Did you take a nap today?
nope

49. Ever been on a cruise?
neverrr

50. Favorite vacation spot?
pretty much anywhere i could explore and relax

51. Favorite genre of music?
everyyy

52. Label yourself?
this is hard .... elisha!

53. Ever met anyone famous before?
yes ... but not a list famous

54. Favorite actor/actress?
lately zack braff/jim carrey and natalie portman/kate winslet

56. Are you multi-tasking right now?
nope

57. Could you handle being in the military?
i regard myself to highly for that shit

58. Are you hungry or thirsty?
neither

59. Favorite fast food restaurant?
i don't know ...

61. What is your average cell phone bill?
i don't know ...

62. Do you own a camera phone?
yes ... but really old and sucky

63. Ever had to take a sobriety test?
neverrr

65. When is your birthday?
august 12, 1988

66. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
i don't know ...

67. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
too manyyy

68. What do you do when you're bored?
hmm ... nothing?

69. Last place you were at?
st. mary magdalene's parish

random.

i was at malaysia's yesterday and i tried out her web cam!
it was funny.
here's the vid.





and my brother and i at the library!

a while ago



i'm working on the panda fest video!
almost done!

my dna.

stupid shit.

is what i'd use to
describe my life this week.


how long do i have to wait for a friend?
it sucks.